16 June 2012

The One that got away


Choices. Life is defined by choices. We have choices because we are free. We have the capacity to choose because we have the freedom, knowledge, and wisdom to determine which is which. Our choices define us. Our choices show our values, what we hold dearly, what we perceive as greater, what we think and trust will be for our own good.

But life is not much of a choice between good and evil, right and wrong, valuable and meaningless. More often than not, our choices surround two goods, two equally appealing realities, or even more. This perhaps is the hardest of choices, because in the end one has to go. One has to leave. One has to become impossible in order for the other to be put into completion. And for sure, it is hard to let go of something, or better yet, someone, who has been part of me or even should have been, could have been, and would have been an eternity of being part of each other's lives. It's a choice to take because everything in this life has a price to pay.

It's been a while since we last saw each other, exchange messages with each other, have those long yet interesting correspondences about life, love, and the future. It has been a while since I last saw you, since we've been together, since we've just simply wasted time with each other. It has been a while, and in between there were changes that happened. You pursued your dream, you stood by your choice, you found somebody to love, you continued to take the road to fulfillment. And so did I. These changes were brought about by the choices we made, the values we hold unto, the dreams we seek to fulfill. We respected each other's choice. We desired nothing less but the best for each other. But in effect, we had to let go - let go of the possibilities within, the time together, the opportunities to share, the future we could have built together. But then again, that is part of the price that we have to pay.

Wherever you are right now, whatever you're doing, whoever you;re with, I'm sure that you are happy. You are on your way to fulfill your own calling, to make a lifelong dream a reality, to build a future for yourself and your loved ones. I myself am also on my way to a lifelong journey of service and dedication. And in both yet separate ways, we wish each other well, we aspire nothing else but the best for both of us.

The lights go out, the bridges burn, once we go, we can't return.

"To love is to wish the other person well." If I remember my philosophy lessons right, it was Saint Thomas Aquinas who said this. As always, I wish you well in your life. Times change, people come and go, feelings fleet, but my wish for you remains the same. Until we meet again.

Kevin Luther C. Crisostomo
7 June 2k12 5:32 PM
Mount Peace, Baguio City
8 Day Pre-Diaconal Retreat
AM+DG

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